Only 19 but my mind is older!

Awwww hey girl heyyyy, I know this is not that much of a time difference its literally only a 3 week difference but I just felt as if I really needed to capture the emotions that I'm feeling right now. First things first though HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYY THA BADDESTTT IS FINALLY 19!!!!! BIG 19 NOT THA LIL ONE!!!!! LOLLLLL, awwwww you are all grown up my sweet majesty I cant belive we've made it to our final year of being a teenager, I really never thought being a teenager would come to an end but somehow some way we are closing in on that gap. But speaking of gaps though, today marks the very last day of our SLIP internship and bro, lol, idk why I'm like actually sad but we just left our little final get together we all went bowling after our final presentations, and I cant help but feel bittersweet about our ending. Obviously I was so so so soooo ready to get this thing over with it felt like it had just been dragging on and on and onnn. But sigh, who am I if not a sucker for a goodbye. I guess I get attached quickly, and I truly will miss my little SLIP internship, especially all the other interns I got to meet while on this journey. I'll miss Jonahs snarky white boy comments, and sassy replies, and his "TELL EM's!" he always was ready to volunteer someone else to speak lolll, but in the end when we needed him most he was a strong pillar to lean on. (OMG and I'll never forget his slow motion fall at sewell, that was truly peak cinema) I'll miss andreas warm and sweet presence, she didnt always know what to say in a group convo but her just being there made the room feel a little more comfortable, shes also smart as heck. I'll miss gregs inability to stand still and his way of constantly just standing idly even when told to lock in, also him constantly coming for my bugaboo beetle. lol I'll miss janices, crazy outlandish remarks, and silly questions, she never failed to not get a pop culture reference or a popular joke, and even if we had slight beef for a moment, she is a good person at her heart and is gonna do some good in this world. (BIG WOOSH) Im gonna miss sahitas little remarks, and her adorable accent, she always found ways to say she thought i was pretty without actually saying it, and even if she wasnt completely sure of what we were talking about she always was ready to laugh and smile, either way she was a great personality to be around. I'm gonna miss carters FUNNY *** facial expressions, and how if you caught eyes with him yall were both about 2.5 seconds away from bursting out laughing, and also his random emoness when he was truly done with the whole situation and ready to clock tf out and go tf home. I'm gonna mis oscars warmmmm smileee, he looks like a little chipmunk when he smiles, and even if sometimes i said something a little slow, all he would do is just smile at me. I'll also miss his crazy stories about his relationship trauma, and just his life in general, hopefully one day he finds the girl of his dreams. I'm gonna miss chisomssss absolute joy that she has! awww i love me some chisom, I could always count on her to laugh at my jokes, and if given more time i just know me and her couldve been really close. I'm gonna miss taliyahs snarky remarks, and golden hair. Shes black girl power in motion, and one day I hope she gets the chance to be herself confidently through and through. I'll even miss mycah with her sorry as excuse for writing trumps name up there on that board, ( i mean boo you are literally out numbered in here, not a wise choise) and probably most of all I'm gonna miss grayson awwwww grayson grayson grayson, hes such a character truly. But he helped remind us to always keep it real no matter where you are, and if you are yourself in every situation then the doors that need to open will open. I'll miss our play fighting and bantering, and our long outside chats during lunch, laughing with grayson was definitely one of the better parts of this internship. All in all I've grown alot over the course of this summer and in this internship, I didnt really see this as where I would be when I first started looking in januray, but I'm very glad that I was given the chance to experience them all. Humans really were just put on this world to love and connect, its all we want to do at the end of the day lol. But yes girl!!! Im sorry i was just really sentimental about the ending of this internship, but back to focusing on you. I hope you've settled in just fine and band camp isint kicking your butt too toooo hard. It should be like the end of the first week by now right?? girl idek all i know is just survive girl, sophmore year is right around the corner and I'm feeling tons of great energy coming from this year. Everything that we want and deserve is going to fall into place, and no weapon formed against us shall prosper. Things are going to start going right! Just wait and see boo! Hopefully by now we really actually have our new advisors and oh my jesus I hope to god it is not miss tandrea eden gibson. Jesus please lead the way and bring us someone with the heart and compassion to do this job. But yes, 19 years old, sitting right there on the cusp of something new while also holding on to all that once was. This is the last year we'll have a 1 in front of our age and from then on out, were gonna be like actually old i cant even lie. 20 is a crazy age to be bro. Like let me calm down. lol I just want to let you know that change is something that is possible for you, you dont have to get stuck inside whatever box you've placed yourself in, and any dream that even crosses your mind is truly attainable because you deserve all good things to come your way. Do not limit yourself my dear, and strive to be a better girl than the one you were yesterday, trust in the lord with all your might and allow him to guide your way. There is so much in store for you majesty, and it starts right now, so be the kind of girl that you'd want to look up to, and then strive to be even better than that. I have so much love in my heart for you my sweet girl, and I cant wait to see how this year goes for us. 18 was a year of tears and change. we grew so much and learned so much about ourselves as well, it wasnt that hard, but it most surely wasnt easy and I am so proud of us for making it to this next stage. So lets raise a toast to 19 being a year of fruitfullness, a year of planting seeds, and a year of evolution. Big changes are coming our way, but dont worry girl you got this! I believe in you and so does Jesus. ONLY 19 BUT MY MIND IS OLDER ASFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!! Now go get lit with your sisters, or better yet go to sleep! lol I hope today was as good as it could be, and I hope tomorrow is even better, I wish you the happiest of birthday wishes my love. And a little random quote just to end it all off, "don't forget to imagine the best case scenario too." awww how precious. Well I just want to say a thank you to the summer and a thank you to Jesus, Its been a summer of growth and I cant wait to see what the next season brings upon us, give us the strength to conquer it, and the wisdom to understand it. awwwwwww Happy birthday my precious Majesty Divine Promise! PS: SPECIAL SHOUT OUT TO THIS SEASON OF LOVE ISLAND FOR BRINGING ME AND MY FELLOW INTERNS CLOSER TOGETHER, GETTING TO TALK AND DISCUSS THE SEASON WITH THEM WAS A HIGHLIGHT OF THE SUMMER....even if the fall off was tragic like boo this season was literally *** sigh. love ya boo!