A letter from Feb 07, 2025

Dear FutureMe, Hey I know it's a big day today! 21 year old finallyy...like when I'm writing it's just 2 months away but still. Might write some stuff tonight out of emotions cause 1st day..anyways I just finished watching bada naam karenge n it was just a light hearted rom com that touched some real good points in a beautiful way..All of this I'm saying while listening to the title song itself...It's so touching that I almost welled up n tears rolled down while listening...some overwhelming feelings ig..Love hasnt been good to me particularly..romantically to be specific..otherwise touchwood I'm blessed in all other ways n yes I'm grateful for that...but the failure, heartbreak all of this comes to my mind whenever I see others around me successful in their relationships...naturally feel left out..not complaining exactly but just feel sometimes if that was one thing that I could've had the privilege to experience once the true beautiful version of it..could've complemented my already beautiful life healed some parts of my inner child that has been craving love. Oh god my tears arent even stopping..its the mood swings I swear :) It's even 2nd day of valentines week today doesnt really matter tho cause I havent ever celebrated one..never had a reason to celebrate one...last year nearly had a reason but turned out to be a douche bag! Anyways..all I wanna tell you my 21 yr old version of me...cause I don't think anyone else knows u too well as much as u yourself girl...You have been through a lot silently and some not so silently yet evolved through all now into a beautiful young woman..striving to work hard and earn harder with just that one goal the 8 yr old you had seen to relieve parents of this financial stress once n for all so much so that money is never an issue in anything- Health, fashion, travel or anythingg... And trust me I know its a lil too late to show this self love but better late than never..Trust your gut n follow your heart no matter what! You might be misunderstood by many people sometimes even ur own people, your family but never let yourself down in your own eyes..cause you are really a beautiful person no matter the flaws be it in appearance or just some personality characteristics..the REAL ONE will know you, your worth n still choose to be with you no matter what!