A letter from January 14th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, i'm a little bit emotional writing this to you . mostly because right now i have a lot on my shoulders, starting to work for going to the academy and getting my life together isnt that easy. i'm 17 right now, turning 18 in august . tbh i knew i wouldn't be excited to get here . everyone wants to grow up and do their big people things, and for me it feels a little overwhelimg, mostly because i have a big exam, and the last time i had one for highschool i was really dissapointed in myself, even tho in the end i am more happier in this highschool. i'm scared that i'm going to dissapoint myself again and fail, thats why i'm going to work hard and try to get where i dream. i found a way to give myself a letter for future me through some nice people that come from around the world, you'll probably remember them. life has already started for "big me " and its not easy, sometimes it can be horrible, but with good and bad, i'm sure you that will be reading this will remember everything and be warm inside because of the memories, the highschool years and fun, all that corona drama that right now is still hapening . just hoping you won't have to take the exam while corona is still a thing .but when you will get the letter you already know that answer.do you have a license now?i hope i didn't have to take that exam too many times :)). are you still with that blonde guy that gives you butterflies everytime you see him ? does he still make you fall in love with him everyday ? or have you moved on from your first love ? all i know is that he's always going to be in your heart, no matter what happens . i want you to know that no matter what happens and where you end up, i'm proud of you , proud of all the hard work you are probably doing , and i'm sorry if me from now doesn't work hard enough for you , but i try my best . i'm also trying to improve myself, be a better person, love and get to know myself . i wonder if you have accomplished any of those, i hope you have. i love you and can't wait to hear all the answers . i hope that i will not be so scared of the future anymore. hope everything will be a little clearer for future me . kisses from january 2021 me